Weather: Cloudy
Location: Singapore Polytechnic Cafe@Moberly
Listening to: People talking
For some reason, I don't feel like myself today. My heart feels kinda heavy, I'm suffering a splitting headache and I'm feeling really tired even with seven hours of sleep.
Problem is, I can't tell what's bothering me. I just feel absolutely... irritated, perhaps? No, not irritated. I just can't tell what's wrong.
I don't know. I don't feel like attending class today, but I have to, don't I? I need to be responsible, like a respectable adult. I can't always whine like a kid, saying things like "I don't want to because I don't feel like it.". Even as a child I doubt I ever said that.
I'm just 'speaking' my mind here. I don't have anyone to talk to. I just don't want to burden others with my troubles. My problems are my own. I should be able to handle them myself. I hope.
I apologise for not posting yesterday. There was something to be initially posted, but I decided against it.
There was something lately that has been on my mind, and that is: change.
Location: Home
Weather: Dark
Currently Listening to: Vampire by Kato Kazuki
That (the title) was what Jez called me today while we were talking in the train. A bit harsh, but I guess I kinda deserved it.
I mean, I want to at least be closer to him, but I don't even have the courage to hold hands. A bit like a バカップル (bakappuru, or rather baka-kappuru. Means idiot couple) situation.
I mean, as my dad says, cling onto him before anyone else gets the chance.
... Why am I writing this here again?
Jo-chan shall sign out now.
Today we had another fun session at the Black Box, aka. T642 in Singapore Poly.
As usual, we started off with a fun game, which was the "Do you like your neighbours" game, same as the one we played during choir camp.
Later on, all twenty of us have to stand on six chairs (it was 11, then 8) without falling off. We were literally hugging each other as if our lives depended on it.
So, for the said event above, I have to dress up as a certain stereotype... And I have no idea what kind of stereotype I should do... Otaku? Nerd? I don't knoooow... sighs.
Some say, a dream is a wish your heart makes. Others believe that dreams predict the future.
So if I see him in my dreams, does it mean the two of us are meant to be? Or is it simply another one of my delusional fantasies?
I don't know... Sigh... If only they were true, I'd be really happy now.
Jo-chan signin' off...
